I WILL EAT YOU NOW
You’d think with the crap festival I had this weekend, there’s no way I could possibly be hungry today. But midafternoon rolled around and I had a big ole case of the grumbellies. I don’t know how it was possible but I was hungry all through dinner. There I was, eating sauteed tilapia and fennel and I was ravenous. Since lunch consisted of tilapia and asparagus, I was jonesing for carbs. An apple I was planning on saving for late night munchies curbed my hunger for about half an hour. Luckily I have another apple coming to me, and it’s baking in the oven right now, in cinnamon and nutmeg-herbed water. This better last for the rest of the night.
So far I have done three injections, and I’ve decided that three self-injections when you really don’t know what you are doing is enough. Today not only could I not get an air bubble out of the syringe, but I forgot to aspirate the needle, and spent the next several hours in total tears and panic that I was going to die. I was having strange sensations in my leg - momentary darts of calf pain, a swelled vein above my knee, and at one point it looked and felt like my right thigh was twice as big as my left.
I am done with injections. I am done with scaring the hell out of the people around me - the few who know I’m doing this - with my predicament of ordering drug paraphernalia online, without a prescription or doctor’s assistance, and having no one within 2,000 miles to provide in-person support when things go awry. Long distance and yahoogroup friends are lovely, but no substitute. Even drug addicts get more support, what with so much profit riding on the successful addiction of the user. I’m guessing unlimited tutorials in proper self-injections are part of the dealer’s sales package.
I’m switching to a sublingual method that is easy to prepare - hcg mixed with Bach’s Rescue Remedy, 5 drops under the tongue, held for as long as possible. With this method, there’s no need to stop for ladies’ days, and you can go for a much longer round than the injections, which people generally develop immunity to after about 4-6 weeks. All I know is this hunger better dissipate because I am going to reach right through the computer screen and eat your whole house up. Because Lord knows, I ate mine this weekend.
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